Bye - bye my school life....

This is my graduate photo in univercity.

I will graduate soon.

Today I got a my last test in univercity..

So I am sad a little...

When I walked out in class..I sad..

"Bye-bye my lovely school..it is last..

I have to go on to the world"

I felt like old..Oh mt god..

I was so sad and miss my collage life..

I don't want graduate not yet!!!!!!T-T

This picture is when I grduate my

high sckool.

We were best friends in same class.

I am in under alone.

When other people look at this photo,

they sad " Are you A ZZANG?" kkk

"Why did you take photo that you seat alone?"

The answer is ......................I don't know!

This photo is when I was 6 grad

of elementary school.Who am I? kkk..

Yes, I am underline and right..

When I look at this picture, always I am happy.

That time, I was most happier in my life.

There were my room, and other kids were

my best friends who were athletic sports group

in my school with me.

As possible as, I want to back that time...

December..

December was the busiest month for me.
I don't know what is passing by date.
Sometimes I can't sleep with a lot of anxieties and thinkings.
Next week is the final exam period but
I couldn't start to study even to this time.

I had a movie audition 2 weeks ago, they cast me.
The movie is underground movie,
but the movie is BIG and IMPORTANT to me because
I able to act first time..
I practiced evryday with them but I can't do well.
So I scared a little.

It is start into my dream, so I'm happy and
I expect to realization of my dream.
AND I belive me! I can do well.

I will lost good gade of my final exam,
but I will have the most important experience in my life.
So I'm happy....

I can't slile front of camera animore...

I want to took my braces off quickly.

It is painful, be not well, and looks like ugly...

Beacause of that, I got many stress and I'm so sad.......

I know that I should wait and bear for long times..but sometimes ..

I hope to through away that....

When I finish of these painful days?

Betting is dangerous...

Today, I make bet with classmates. We are in same golf class,
and we got close a little bit, sowe decided to make bet with
each other by playing pocketball. The losing person will pay for
dinner and drinks
Lastly, our class report.
There are 3 of us and the losing person write 3 reports by hand.
I didn't want to do report so I say let's do it! I was confident that
I will win.

After school today, we went to pocketball club to play pool.
I was winning in the beginning, but later, third person came
and he was so lucky. I have no luck. I lost in the end.
I screamed after the game.
So I pay money for dinner and drinks, and I took all reports
and came home. I am very sad.
Don't make betting. It is dangerous............

The most shocking movie I have ever seen....

It is a French movie and it's about a pregnant lady who loses
her husband in a car accident. She had been driving, and he
was in the passenger seat, but only she survived the crash.
After her husband's death, she awaits her baby, spending
time alone even during Christmas. One night, she gets a
female visitor who knows everything about her, including
her name and her dead husband. She is scared so she calls
the police, who come after a while, and check out the whole
house. They didn't find any trespassers, so they left. The
lady, goes to bed, thinking she is safe. When she is sound
asleep, the visitor breaks in, and tries to stab her pregnant
body with a pair of scissors. She wakes up and escapes to
the bathroom. After this, there are many cruel and nasty
scenes, and I was able to see that the intruding woman was
after the lady's baby. She was planning to cut her stomach
open and get the baby out, so she could raise it on her own.
The lady's mother gets killed when she visits her pregnant
daughter, the lady's boss gets killed, and two policemen get
killed as well. The way they die is very cruel, and in the
lady dies too, but before she does, the intruder cuts open
her stomach and takes the baby out. It turns out that
the intruder was the driver of the other car when the
accident occurred and she had also been pregnant, but
her baby died and she wanted revenge by killing the lady
and stealing her baby.
The story was shocking, the scenes were shocking
and the whole movie was always red....because
there was so much blood.
I wonder if things like this ever happen in real life?
People are scary...........

Things that made me sad today...

*I watched a movie called "A Secret that can't be told," which is a Hong Kong movie about two
lovers, who cannot be together. It was very sad and it made me cry. I wonder if that kind of love
exists?
*My mom is trying to get into real estate, and had been preparing for an exam for about a year.
The exam was on Sunday, and we found out that she didn't pass. She had put her heart and soul
into it, but she doesn't know what to do now.
*I keep losing weight these days. I don't know why, but maybe it's because of stress, but all my clothes are big now, and no matter how much I eat, I keep losing weight. And because of that,
I'm always weak and have no energy to do anything. I look like a frailed dying tree.
*My friend is going through a very hard time because of love. She is hurting so much that she would rather have a lot of physical pain and she cannot give up her love for that person. It makes me sad that I can't do anything about it.
*My savings are slowly disappearing. It's not like I come from a wealthy family, so I can't really
eat what I want, buy what I want, or do anything I want to do. I have to watch my spending and
it saddens me.
Today was a sad day for me. I spent all day in bed. I feel all alone in this world and I no longer
have the urge to be optimistic about things.
Today was a very sad day for me....

Sex and the City Korean Version

KELLY (So Jung)
She likes to write...like Kelly.
She loves her girlfriends...like Kelly.
She is sensitive when it comes to LOVE...like Kelly.
MIRANDA (Seung Min)
She is a little cynical...like Miranda.
She is very careful about everything...like Miranda.
She is very protective of her friends...like Miranda.

CHARLOT (Young In)
She is like a princess...like Charlot.
She acts like a virgin...like Charlot.
She is very loyal...like Charlot.

SAMANTHA (ME)
I am very outgoing...like Samantha.
I love fashion...like Samantha.
I like to have fun...like Samantha.
and...I like men...like Samantha...hahaha

This is my version of the Sex and the City.
These are my closest friends from college.
We are all different and have our own
special characteristics and personalities.
We are all in our mid-twenties right now,
but we plan to grow old together, just like
the girls from Sex and the City.

I LOVE YOU GIRLS! MWA!

5 things I treasure the most...

1. My album.
It is filled with many memories of my friends, my family and myself.
Everytime I look at it, it reminds me of all the lovely times I had in the past.
Special memories cannot replace anything. They are very dear to me.
They make me cry, smile and laugh.

2. My cellphone.
Without it, I cannot contact anyone and it will make me feel all alone in
this world. I also have a diary, a schedule, pictures, and other important
information locked inside. It is a way of keeping in contacting with
the rest of the world, a way of entertaining myself when I'm bored and
a way of adding another part of myself into it.
It is like an electronic diary and without it, I cannot last a day.

3. My watch.
I love watches. Some girls are crazy about shoes, and some are crazy
about clothes. But I am crazy about watches because it is one of
the final touches of fashion. With lots of different colors, shapes and sizes,
I change my watch to match whatever I am wearing.
Watches are not only useful in telling time, but they are useful
when accessorizing one's outfit.

4. Letters from my first love.
I received them 4 years ago. I have tried to throw them away many times
after our painful breakup, but I cannot bring myself to actually put them
in the garbage. I still read them time to time, and when I do,
I cry or laugh depending on the contents of the letters and my mood.
They are letters given to me when I found my first love,
and it is scary because usually, you can never forget your first experience.
I will always keep them locked away in my desk, and take them out
when I want to reminisce about HIM.

5. My perfume.
I like to smell nice scents. I am very sensitive about that.
I like it when people smell nice and I like to think that I smell nice too.
Like music, perfumes have a way of moving people.
For example, a person walks past wearing perfume or cologne and
the scent lingers in the air, reminding you of someone you know.
Or when you first meet someone, and he/she smells nice,
they leave a good impression.
I think the way you smell expresses who you are.

Last week....something annoying happened...but it is also funny^^

Last weekend, I waited my friend to come from work because I wanted help for my homework which was due the next day.
I went to the my friend's home at late night time.
There, we talk some gossip and did my homework until 3 am.
I saved homework on my USB so I can print it out. I said bye bye and drove back home light hearted and cheerful.

When I came back home, I turned my computer on so I can print out. I put my hand in my pocket to find USB BUT! it was not there!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
AHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! S*$%!!!!! F@#^!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I looked EVERYWHERE! My bag, my car, car parking area, elevator.....
BUT! It was not there!!!!!!!!!

OMIGOD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I called my friend.
"HEY! IS MY USB THERE!? FIND IT NOW PLEASE!"
BUT! My friend couldn't find it.

OMIGOD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I was very angry and frustrated and hate myself.
I went back to friends house. It was 4 am.
I looked at friends bed, desk, bathroom, kitchen, elevator and car parking area.
BUT! It wasn't anywhere!!!!!!!!!!

OMIGOD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I wanted to cry, because I tried very hard for this class and for this homework, and I
get help from my friend but I did my best too....Also, I was very tired....
I went back home, to do my homework again.
It was 4:30 am. Of course, my friend helped me on phone.
It became 6 am.

Ohmigod...
I was very tired and sorry to my friend.
BUT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Later in the morning.........I FOUND IT IN MY SHOE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

OMIGOD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Why....????

1. Why does he like to spend more time with his friends than ME?

2. Why does he like to drink so much?

3. Why does he spend so much money on drinking?

4. Why does he have so much pride? Even when he says he loves ME?

5. Why does he not admit that he is going through a hard time?

6. Why does he say he will call but he doesn't?

7. Why does he think that everything is really ok I say it is?

8. Why doesn't he know that I really wants attention and comfort?

9. Why does he always think he is right about everything?

10. Why does he want authority?

11. Why does he do everything he want and he doesn't allow ME to do the same thing?

12. Why does he always keep ME waiting?

13. Why does he hate ME wearing mini skirts?

14. Why doesn't he treat ME with warmth and love?

15. Why doesn't he trust ME and put up walls?

14. Why does he make promises to ME he can't keep?

15. Why does he always wake ME up at dawn after getting drunk?

16. Why is he so selfish?

17. Why is so bossy?

18. Why can't he say sorry to ME when he does something wrong?

19. Why is he not confident about himself? and ME? and US?

20. Why do you always hurt ME and make ME cry?

MY HEART IS BREAKING...

LOVE IS BEAUTIFUL...

BUT IT HURTS LIKE POISON...

POISONOUS LOVE...

WHY...DO I LOVE YOU?

At The My Original Home

Yesterday I moved to my mother's home.
3 years ago, I wanted to live by myself near my school and I did that.
I felt freedom and happiness for the first time and I enjoyed that.
But, as time went by, I faced financial difficulties and had been getting tired of eating alone.
Living alone was really hard and there were many responsibilities so finally I decided to go back to my family's home.
I'm suffering from flu and don't feel good, becuase I worked too much by cleaning up my properties. But I'm not alone anymore.
I'm eating food which my mom cooked and I hear her warm nagging again.
I'm happy even though I'm sick.
The only bad thing is that my school is very VERY far away:(

A new female assassin in town...

Today is Monday. a start of new week.
I had very fun weekend.
I went to park in Bundang and there I walk and ride a bike with my friend.
We ate meat at dinner time and it VERY delicious for me because we were starving.
When we were coming home, we saw shooting place.
It is not real gun, but it is called BB gun.
If you shoot at things in a distance, you get points and get free doll.
I discovered my hidden talent.
Everyone was amazing at me.
I shoot down almost everything and laughed proudly and arrogantly.
I got a small teddy bear. It is stuck to my mirror in bedroom.
When I see the teddy bear, I feel very good. Ha~ha~ha!
I think I will be good sniper. Maybe I will change my dream to sniper?
I was thinking serious and if there was another life before I was born,
I think I was a gorgeous female warrior or sexy female assassin. kkk^^

My best friend...

Her name is Kimberly. She is my college friend and I live with her.
She is english teacher, like Joshua. She is 25 years old and she has no brother or sister. She live in Sydney long time ago. Kimberly personality is similiar to me so we were close in short time. I meet her in freshman year in college. She major in english interpretation in Tourism Department. But she graduate last month. I do many things with her such as live together, fight, cry, laugh, travel and have fun. After that, I know many things about her.

Her dream was before a writer. She read many novels and books for many hours. My bookshelf is fill with her novels. I like when she giggle and sometimes cry when she read a fun or sad novel. However, she be an english teacher now. She choose not what she want but something she do well. English! Although I worry first, she is doing good now because she like children. She say teaching is fun. I know this though. She want to going abroad again and study creative writing in future. I hope she is always happy in doing anything and I will pray for her.

She is lonely person like me. But her expressing is different to me. When she have hard time, she want someone with her. She has warm heart and trust people well so she has many hurt. Before, I didn't know that so I make her lonely more. She is always happy face but one thing different to me is she can't hide her pain well. Also, she has weak willpower. When I persuade, for example, do something with me like going club, she do it always but with complain. kkk.

Anyway, I love my friend. She is like big sister to me and I lean on her very much. I want her to do same thing like me. From now on, I want to do many things with her and I want her with me too. She is sensitive and get become sulky but she is very cute and lovely girl. Also, very pretty. Best friends is like this. She will be my best friend until I become grandmother and die.


P.S. Please comment if you interest in my friend. kkkkkkkkkkk^^

This is me!

My name is Yoon Hye Jin. I am 24 years old and I will graduate after this semester. I live in Kangnam with my best friend. My family is my mother, my brother and me. My father died when I was 13 years old. I was lonely and it was hard when I was growing. My hobby is watching movies and exercise weight-training. I am good at water-skiing, making cocktails and coordinating clothes.

One strongest point of me is I am bright. I like to laugh and smile very easy and I make friends well. That is why many people think I am always cheerful and don’t worry about things. But this is my bad point too. For example, when I have hard times and I want to cry, I can’t find anyone I can lean on because people always expect me bright. I have a lot of tears but I always cry alone and I have many friends but I am always a lonely person in my heart. Due to this, people take advantage of me which is why I am angry and frustrate sometimes. However, I treat them with more smile.

Until now, I had many experience about job, such as waitress, bartender, hotel front desk, sales clerk, tutor, reporter, etc. Now, my dream is actress. I like attention to me from many people and coming out to camera so I studied acting work since three months ago. Long time ago, my dream is stewardess because my major is hospitality and I thought service is easy to me. But it was boring. I worry for a long time and I make a decision to do what I like and want. After this, I worked as VJ, take a commercial and music video. Of course, that is not easy. I feel frustration and wanting to giving up sometimes, but I am truly happy now because I have hope and belief that I will be successful.

Actors should know themselves but I don’t know myself well. Sometimes, I don’t know my feeling if I want to do something or I should do something, and I don’t know how to express my feeling. I confuse many times but I know only that I love myself and when I discover about new thing of me, I am happy. I will study myself and develop more for my future. My motto is, life is fun because everyone don’t know the future. It is mystery.

About me..

I am currently attending my last semester... The thought of gradutating sounds both exciting and scary at the same time.

It makes me a little regretful too. .I will be taking this class for the second time. I want to do well, but my english sucks. Because this is my first post, i asked my friend for a little help. I will have to try and do it by myself next time. I am very worried about that.. :(

My dream is to become an actress. I am making all the effort to achieve my dreams, but just trying to get there is taking up all my energy. Having a dream makes me happy, but because I am a very ambitious person, it wears me out at times.

I wonder if I can step out into the world and make my

dreams come true?

I pray to God every day.......Amen.